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This is not just for women so men read on!
Have you ever taken action knowing it was not the right time
or place to do so? How about feeling tired and worn out wondering
how you were ever going to continue? Have you ever felt like
a piece of you was missing? I have known exactly how you feel.
Until recently, I felt exhausted for many years. Much of this
was a result of years spent in a corporate life of not honoring
the feminine or myself. In order to survive and succeed in a
man's world, my tendency was to hold myself very male like, more
projective and active rather than receptive and quiet. It was
the only example I had seen and the only way I had known. Delightfully
I've discovered you do not need to be this far out of balance
in order to be successful, to get things done, or to be happy.
There is a medium for both men and women.
On a trip to Egypt I was in the Temple of Osiris. During a ceremony
there, I experienced in my body the merging of the Divine feminine
and masculine thus the state of Divine union. I had intellectualized
and imagined what this was like but never really felt
it within my heart or body. During this occurrence I sensed the
energies in their purest form permeate my cells. After experiencing
the actualization of this wholeness I knew I wanted to be it
all the time.
I was willing to let go of the imbalances being reflected back
to me in many ways . . . in my relationship with my Self, a beloved,
others personally and professionally, and with my family. So
how does this relate to the questions above? The answers lie
in the discoveries to follow.
On my return from Egypt, I embarked on a journey of real
intimacy with my Self. On some level I knew I was not deeply
intimate with my Self so how could I be that with another? I
asked questions of my Self. How did I perceive and hold my Self
in life? How did I respond in relationships with others? How
did I create the world I lived in?
At this point I was committed to do whatever it took to live
the feeling and understanding experienced in the temple. It meant
many people and things fell away but my conviction to the Truth
of Self was more important than perceived losses or judgments
of the process.
I found the nurturance of the Mother (earth and water) and the
connection with the Father (spirit) to be extremely important
in the process of balance, rediscovery, reintegration, and rejuvenation.
Water is a key Mother element in healing our souls as well as
experiencing the play of it all with beings such as the dolphins.
Water is fluid, feminine, and soothing to the soul.
As babies we floated in the embryonic fluids of our mothers feeling
connected and secure. It was quite a surprise as we took our
first breath in life that our initiation into the world was a
slap on our behind. It's no wonder that our bodies yearn again
for the sacredness of water.
Until I lived in Santa Fe, New Mexico I had always been by water,
not necessarily in it but just being near it seemed important.
Living there I realized how starved I was for water, deserts
not being very conducive to lots of water. I went swimming with
the dolphins in Bimini during that time and it enlivened me in
the most profound way. Building on the realization the year before
I had in Egypt, the Bimini trip continued to open my heart and
bring in more awareness of the feminine.
The dolphins are a living example of balance, love, joy,
and play with intellect that we still do not comprehend. Their
frequency and the connection between their hearts and minds are
evident. You cannot help but meet them at the vibration of love
they hold and share. I watched the transformation within my Self
and other members of the group on the trip as the days passed
by.
There was ease, flow, and a knowingness of all things with
the dolphins. They allow the experience of the balance between
feminine and masculine. They know intuitively (feminine) when
to be in a quiet, gentle space (feminine) and when to be aggressive
and take action (masculine). They know when to be in chaos or
fluidity (feminine) and when to be structured or organized (masculine).
They know love, joy, peace, and harmony (a balanced state of
beingness, a Divine union of All).
They honor all aspects of themselves . . . the play and the serious.
I watched as they came to each one of us giving us what we each
needed. As an observer I saw how they ensured interaction with
every individual and sent vibrations of healing, joy, and love
to each.
Between my excitement of being with the dolphins in their environment
and the uneasiness of being in the ocean again, my diving mask
and I were having wars with each other. The dolphins understood
this and knew I could not dive and play with them as others could.
They came up to me and just floated or swam with me side by side
gazing into my eyes. One in particular did this a couple of times.
In our last encounter we were just 12 inches apart and as clearly
as you would speak to me, he said, "I love you. I was so
taken aback that all I could do was immediately say "I love
you too. He acknowledged receiving the message with a nod and
then was off.
Recently, after months of sharing the care taking of my dying
aunt, my body was screaming for water. When my aunt passed I
longed to take a vacation to France but my body would not let
up, it wanted water and it wanted it now! So instead I went to
Greece (I know, oh darn!) and I spent three weeks in the water.
After visiting the waters of Greece, I feel fully energized by
being connected with the Divine (or you could say God) on a different,
deeper level than I have known before. It provides me with an
infinite source of strength that moves through me allowing for
a renewed sense of confidence, Universal flow, and solid knowingness.
I feel love and balanced. Abilities, awareness, and intuition
are heightened. Understanding, knowledge, and wisdom are felt
in my body. I feel Divine union occurring in all aspects of my
being with the remembrance and embodiment of my Divine essence.
I attribute this once again to the healing energies of the water.
Every day in the water, I felt my body and energy being healed
by soaking in the love and joy it had to offer. It brought intellectual
concepts into feeling and vibrationally shifted my cells back
to Truth and Oneness. The nurturance of the water was taking
me in, surrounding me, flowing through me inside and out. And
even though I saw the dolphins only a couple of times, I could
hear them and feel their energy around me. They have many things
to teach us in and out of the water.
So whether it is in the bath, a hot tub, a pool, a river, a lake,
or the ocean, call upon the Mother to nurture and heal that which
is out of balance in you. Become empowered within the flow of
love, grace, and joy as within the flow of the Mother's water.
As Sekhmet (representative of the principle of purification)
had communicated to me in Egypt, true power lies in love, compassion,
and grace, not control and sacrifice.
Allow your feminine to guide the masculine to places he has not
yet experienced due to the upbringing and encodements held by
many. It is no longer a matriarchal or patriarchal world as we
have seen in the past. Today we continue to watch these matrixes
crumble for they are no longer a valid means to live life.
It is a time of co-creation and union. And it begins with each
individual . . . the personal journey of the Divine union within
each one of us. A remembrance and activation of our Divine essence
in a balanced state of the Divine feminine and masculine felt
in all aspects of our Selves. From this place of freedom comes
the Divine out breath of creation in form and rejuvenation of
our souls.
Amanda Butler is a spiritual coach,
facilitator, writer, and speaker serving as a catalyst and inspiration
in her teaching and support of individuals and businesses to
heal, to be who they Truly are, and to reach their fullest potential.
She is the founder of Stellar-Gaia Alliances dedicated to expanding
and empowering spiritual consciousness, presently residing in
the Detroit Metro area providing private sessions, classes, and
workshops. She can be reached at 248.646.3793 or via email: stellargaia@earthlink.net. For additional information, visit www.spiritofnature.org/amandabutler.htm.
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